Archive for October, 2007

…groans that words cannot express.

I’ve been in a sort of a funk for the past few days. I let a little bit of bitterness mixed with a dash of loneliness ruin a night and perpetuate through an entire weekend. These feelings left me sitting in church this morning wishing I was still in bed or at least feeling like being in the presence of the Lord. I was yearning for the Lord’s companionship, but…

then I got a text message.

It was a simple request for prayer, but in that moment, the Lord showed me why i was sitting in a pew instead of still laying in bed. It was because I was in a place where I felt comfortable enough to get on my knees for my friend. Never had I felt so burdened, significant and insignificant in the same moment. It was amazing and bittersweet.

In James it says, “…pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective.” Now, I by no means consider myself righteous, but I still felt if I asked for wisdom on how to pray for my friend, the Holy Spirit would intercede for me for my friend.

Guess what the sermon was on.

Yep, the title of the sermon was “Pray Believing.” Never put God in a box!

In light of this sounding “preachy,” I still had no idea how to pray for my friend. I just dropped to my knees and asked the Lord to rain His presence down on my friend and to bring peace and comfort. It was all I could do but to just repeat: “Peace and comfort, peace and comfort.” And then tonight I found this verse:

Romans 8:26
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

“…groans that words cannot express.” I know English wasn’t the original language, but what a description. I was comforted in this moment and again I drop to my knees to intercede on behalf of my friend so that the Spirit wil intercede for me.

My happiness is found in less of me and more of You…

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Thank you TEL 300 (ok I’ll never say that again!)

October 11, 2007 1 comment

I’ve been at work since 7 this morning and I consider it a miracle I survived my first cold bike ride of the year (40 this morning!). Alas, I forced myself to do some homework after I warmed up and in my TEL 300 class, our group project consists of determining if the Kentucky Kernel (our campus newspaper) has a more liberal/conservative, positive/negative, or focus on certain issues kind of slant. Consequently, I just spent 2 hours reading Editorials and Letters to the Editor from my freshman year of college. This, combined with last night’s small group discussion on discipleship, has led me to this thought:

It’s becoming harder to be in the world and not of it.

As I was reading old opinions about the Genocide Awareness Project that came my first semester of college (they put up huge graphic pictures of aborted babies, people protested, police presence was heavy, it was during midterms week, etc), I found my face getting warm and my tension rising. This all happened two years ago, and it had nothing directly to do with me! It saddens me that much of this world believes Christians are “those kind of people.” You know, the ones who stand in the Free Speech Area at the Student Center and tell people they’re going to hell, the ones who put “God” and “the Bible” in their Facebook profile under Interests and Favorite Books and then get drunk on the weekends (notice I didn’t say that they drink, but that they get drunk), the ones who say they are Christian, which inherently means “follower of Christ,” and then they live solely for themselves.

This is beside the point, though, because what saddens me even more is that followers of Christ, myself included, engage in heated arguments, get drug into insulting debates, and do not show love when confronted with conflicting beliefs. I don’t know about you, but I get angry when someone disagrees with my beliefs about abortion… or same-sex marriage… or even gambling in the state of Kentucky. I get angry when people criticize me for boycotting Abercrombie, Hollister and Target and still shopping at Wal-Mart.

This is not how it should be.

If I remember correctly, love “is not easily angered” according to 1 Corin. 13, and in Colossians when it said “you must now rid yourself of all such things” the first thing listed is anger (ch. 3). When I get angry, I am not able to show Christ’s love. That sounds so puerile, and I wish I could jazz it up and sound theological, but then it would lose its substance. Plus the simplicity of the language does not account for the difficulty of carrying out its opposite. To show Christ’s love to the world, to be in the world and not of it, I must not act out of anger. I need to let the peace of Christ rule in my heart. I need to not give the devil a foothold, and when I open my mouth, what comes out should be building someone up or be of benefit to those who listen.

So that I pray for this post, that it be of benefit to you who have listened. Peace.